成长篇

突起而来的感触..有感而发的一者成长篇...
懂我的人,大多数都知道我不是在一个很好的家庭环境长大...
外表看似坚强,乐观,开朗,而且还很傻..也很少让别人看到伤心的那一面..
这就是我给人的感觉?! Hmm.. 应该是吧..
但真真懂我的人应该会觉得我超爱哭...>.<
外表很坚强,难听一句叫逞强..
被人冤枉,被人骂,就会失控还会跑去厕所偷哭..>.<
内心超级软弱..这就是以前的我..

岁月不留人,我可以说自己算是长大了吗？
应该可以吧..都老了呢！>_<
在新加坡工作有一年多了..
感触很多,幸福也很多...

在外地工作真的能让自己成长得很快...
看清现实世界里的循环生活..
现在来讲讲我自己的故事...

从一个芝麻绿豆的小职员开始..
第一份工作可以算是很幸运?!呵呵..
虽说没有做到很开心但是我很庆幸可以认识到一班很好的同事..
话说回来,一开始我真的不知道自己是在被人欺压..
直到朋友们告诉我那些info,我才知道我进了一个'kampung'公司..
不同的公司会有不同的system..但是若一个连system也没有的公司就真的可以完蛋了..
员工一定会吃尽苦头..
在那间公司,我上司的话就是system..可笑吧？
而且还可以时常变来变去的...这就是对的concept...无奈...
在那时候的我真的很生气和压力..那些无形的压力让我暴饮暴食还时常生病..
还严重到去看specialist照G scope,还一直很怕自己胃穿洞..
那时候的胃痛简直可以拿了我的命.. 所以你说赚新币容易吗?
工作赚钱养医生..看一次就花费至少70到90的新币..
在过去的一年里,药物是我的‘朋友’..有时一个月还要看两次医生..
现在的我看回去,真的很佩服自己是怎样熬过来的...
在那里真的到忍无可忍的程度，差不多一年就辞掉那份工了..
真是万幸！！
还记得我交了辞职信后的几天,我上司莫名其妙叫我去厕所..
然后我在那里和她'开战'..莫名其妙被骂..还好那时候我已经不怕她,还会反驳..
在那个关键时刻，幸好有一位同事刚好要上厕所,她推开门的那刹那救了我..
真心感谢我那位同事...
经过了大大小小的事,我真的没有想过我的人生里会出现那样的奇葩..
也因为这样的人让我变得更懂事...
现在在写着这些心情语录时，心里是很平静的..
突然想要感激那些伤害过我的人..谢谢你们让我的内心变得更加坚强..

每个人的人生里终有起起落落..
感恩那些起起落落让我知道什么是好和坏..

就因为上一份的工不是很好..它还让我看清我真的不是会计的料..
所以我决定跳出这个框框..谁说读会计一定要当会计师？
可能有些朋友觉得很浪费,只剩下4张纸就能成功了..
可是我真的过不了自己..
我知道自己要的是什么...
就因为这样，我更加谨慎的去找下一份工...

其实在上一篇我有大概写了我怎样得到这份工..
但在这篇我会讲得更详细..
找工期间用了一个月..
见了四到五份工.. 遇到了不同级别的人，学到了不少东西..
庆幸的事是我可以选择要还是不要做那份工..
感谢上帝的眷顾，让我可以拒绝我不想要的工..
我真的很幸运..我可以说是遇到贵人..
朋友介绍，然后我就带着试试看的心态去见工..
结果连我自己也吓到..因为见后不到两天就开工.. 真的是快狠准!!

我喜欢很直接的上司.. 给我的感觉就是我可以学到很多东西..
虽然工资没有很高但是能在新的领域学习已经算很好了..
不知不觉，在这间做了四个月左右... 然后我真的学到了很多...
原来男女上司的分别真的很大..
现在的上司也就是我的老板,他教了我很多从书本上学不到的道理与知识..
我很感恩.. 虽说工作上一定会有口角纠纷,但这些都是能让自己学习的过程..

从一些小事上，我学到了一些人生道理..
努力与坚持是人生里最重要的心态!
在我的家庭教育里,我在我妈妈身上看到什么叫只有自己最可靠..

不靠自己还能靠谁？
每件事情都得付出努力才可以得到好的结果..
若不努力就什么都没有..
努力争取了就会有机会得到自己想要的东西..值不值就另当别论..
得到想要的结果就值了..
得不到就要付出更多的努力..
我深信那一句话..皇天不负苦心人..
只要真正付出努力，一定可以成功..

现在的我每一天都过得很充实..
能活着真的很好..
我很感谢每一个对我很好的人..
谢谢你们的出现让我的生活变得很幸福..
感恩..

Short update

I'm happy with my life. I'm satisfied and grateful for what I had in life.

Short update for myself to recall back what exactly happened within these short period of time.

Last post was about June 2015 and now is June 2016. Time flies. One year gone.

First, I'm thankful to God because my mummy has recovered and getting healthy. I back to Singapore and work in that company about a year and resigned on Feb 2016. Keep searching for the jobs I want. Went for few interviews and gain some new knowledge. Super happy because I can reject their offers. LOL. >.<''' . Within that period I keep telling myself ''don't back to account field and get something I really fond of it''... hmm.. I think Jesus heard my prayer. Thank God. Amen!

Btw, after resigned, my body condition is getting better and I become more healthy!! hahahha!!! You know what?! I found a job I wanted to give it a try and I want to learn something new!! I'm super grateful because my NS junior recommend me to go for the interview. :) Thanks a lot!! hehe!

Super excited when I started to work because everything is super new and fresh to me. I seem like I have to learn engineering stuff too as I have to go to operation site to see & learn & ask. Hahaha! Oops.. Forgot to say that...finally... really finally.. I'm no longer in account field anymore. Wahahaha!  Too happy for this!

Why will I update my blog in a sudden?!

This is because I bought a NEW Laptop!!! HAHAHA!!!

Long long time didn't have such feeling. Because of new laptop, I wanted to use the keypad and keep typing words. LOL... The best way to use new lap top is update your own blog so that you can testing how good is the keypad are?!! wahahhaha!!

How lame am I?

This is my second laptop and it's the first laptop that I have to pay by myself!

Joyce, please take good care of it!
ASUS please treat me well!! hahaha!

Good Night!

我的妈妈之伟大的女人 ❤

小学的时候，我们时常遇到这个题目的作文-我的妈妈..
还记得以前的我一定会写妈妈有一双怎样怎样的手..[因为这些都是老师教的]..呵呵！
现在想回去真的觉得自己很好笑..

有时我在想...女人的一生是该如何渡过的呢？
为家庭？为事业？就没有为了自己而活吗？

我的妈妈就是一个很好的例子..
我不懂她用了多少的坚持与力量去支撑这个家..
从我10岁开始,妈妈就一个人扛了这个家..
一个女人是如何能养大4个孩子呢？

我还小的时候，还真的不懂事，顶撞妈妈是家常便饭的事..
现在想回去真的很惭愧..对不起啊，妈咪！

我真的很幸运因为我有这个的妈妈。。。
我的妈妈比任何人来的命苦..
经历了3次大手术..
很感谢上帝因为都平安过关..

我不懂如何表达那些感觉..
我只能说..

第一次...
我第一次看到我妈妈哭..
我看到妈妈真的很辛苦，那时候的我还不懂怎样去照顾妈妈..
很幸运的事是很多亲戚都来帮忙..真的很感激他们..
在医院看到妈妈的那一刻，心存感激因为妈妈还活着..
看到妈妈流泪的那一刻，自己的眼泪也流了下来..
那种感觉真的让人很痛苦..
心里一直想..妈妈，你快点好起来吧..

第二次...
这一次，我会驾车了..
整个过程都呆在医院陪妈妈..
心里一直祷告祈求上帝帮助妈妈..
我不能失去妈妈，失去妈妈会让我活不下去..
在等待手术的时间是真的很漫长..
而且会让人很担忧..唯独能做的就是等和祷告..
我真的很感谢所有帮助过我和我妈妈的人..
感谢教会的朋友前来探望..
我心里真的很感激那些在我最需要帮助时伸出援手的人..

第三次...
我真的服了我妈妈...
她不想任何人担心...
她最后一分钟才通知其他人包括亲戚..
妈妈不想麻烦任何人，把所有事都自己扛..
我最生气的事是，她竟然叫我不要回去看她..=.='''
我和妈妈说，妈妈只有一个，我不回去，还是人吗？
感觉上妈妈真的很淡定,但我知道妈妈是很害怕的..
所以当我知道妈妈有事时，和她通电话的时候，我也变得很像很淡定..
但其实一挂了电话,我就泪流满面了...
我只有一个妈妈,我也很爱我的妈妈,我不想失去我的妈妈..
每一次等待手术完成的时间都让人很忐忑...
在医院的时间过得特别慢..
一直走来走去，坐不定，站不稳..心里很着急就对了..
等了4个小时才看到一脸苍白的妈妈..
我真的会被吓破胆..

这次...陪妈妈在医院睡..
原来照顾病人一点也不简单...
很多细节的东西得注意..
妈妈得禁食3天..就连水也不能喝..只能用棉花蘸点水放嘴唇..
手术后，妈妈起不到床，手脚会麻痹，所以一定要按摩..
现在的我才懂，护士这份工一点也不简单。。

在妈妈身边待了一个星期..
我又回到新加坡继续工作！

走的时候，忘了和妈妈说... 我真的很爱她！
妈咪，我爱你哟！要好好照顾自己！！
这样我才可以活得很安心.. =D


经历了种种的事情...
我很想对所有人说..
时间是不等人的，所以一定要做孝顺的孩子..
不要等到最后一分钟才后悔莫及..
到那时候，想孝顺已经来不及了...
没有东西会陈年不变一直呆在自己的身边..
所以请大家务必要珍惜与爱惜身边的人。事。物。

I am Grateful for everything I had..
Thanks God for everything!
Thanks Lord for blessing my family..
Thank you Thank you Thank you!
Be Thankful and Grateful..
Love Life. ❤

                                                                                                                                                                                 

Great Moments in Life~ ❤️

Time for sharing again..
Recall back my memories...
End of March, I went to Bangkok with my Aunt, Uncle and brother-Winson.
I felt grateful for everything because I able to go to travel!!
This trip is all about Food!!! And indeed eating is fun yet my weight come to a danger level again..
We stay at Novotel!!! It's a nice and comfortable hotel! and what I love most is the hotel breakfast!! Hahaha!!! Nice and got variety of food to eat!!!
It's surprisingly I didn't bought much stuff in Bangkok... Hmm~
I just knew that I keep eating at there!!!

After back from Bangkok....
A brand new start in my life...
I have started to work...
My very first full time job at Singapore..
Hmm... Challenging?!

During searching time and interview time is quite challenging..
Because scare no people reply my email.. Hahaha!
Once I got my job, got another company call me to interview.. Lol..

Hmm.. Work for almost 3 weeks and I felt so far so good!!
Although nothing is easy but I believe and have faith in myself and
I knew that I could gone through all these hardship..

Learning to be more independent and have a good time management!!!
I'm thankful for everything that I had..
I'm grateful that I have my families to support me..
Thankful for all the Great people who always willing to help and teach me!
Love my life! And My Life is Greatest ever!!!
May God bless me in everything!!

Cherish everything in my Life! ❤️

Hoho.. Using phone to update blog have different feelings!! Hehe!

一时感触_心灵日记

慢慢一直觉得自己应该成长了...
在我这个年龄里，我应该是一个成熟稳中并且是一个有职业的人...
但可惜我不是..

是很失落和很自卑..总觉得自己的脚步太慢了..

我的人...衰冲动.. 衰急性子...
所以很多东西只懂一半一半..

有时真的很想大骂自己..
为什么不能安安稳稳专注只学那样东西..
我不能分身..应该要有专署自己的专长..并且要独一无二的..

有太多事情都要自己扛..决定了就要承担..
 我相信我是可以的..

经过了那么多风风雨雨..
我还是觉得我妈妈是最伟大最好的..
虽然她有时很唠叨但我真的知道她是为我们好..

原来不管发生了什么事，妈妈永远都会给孩子们最好的建议。。
妈咪，我真的很爱你的！对不起因为又让你失望了。。

踏踏实实的活着才是最重要的..

又是回到最原始的目标开始..

跌倒了，别怕，再重新站起来..
努力向前！

努力迈向未来.坚定自己的目标！
陈佩珊！你是最棒的！！努力加油！

我要有她的精神！！

丁噹！

我是一只小小鸟~

想要飞得更高就要想办法突破所有困难！

A brand new start ❤

Take a review for my 2014...
A Super Great year to me.. =D
I am so grateful that all the GREAT things happened in my life!!
Thank you for all the people who appear in my life and thank you for everyone who has helped me in anything!!! I am so grateful and thankful about all of these because without the Great people that I met then will not have the current ME!! muahhaha!!

During 2014, I considered super Lucky because i able to visit many places!! muahahah!!
hmm.. after resign my very first job as account officer, I went to TAIWAN on April with all my bfff~ hoho!! then... so speechless because the government delay my NS to 3rd batch..
in between the period, i work as part time promoter.. I do went to Singapore for attending all those training.. LOL.. Part time only also require training? feel weird? LOL.. may be i too talented? oops.. self praising.. *tak tau malu* ngek ngek.. :P
hoho.. i went to Singapore on May and July 2014!! so fun and so thankful to have my Aunt and Uncle who treat me so well.. thank you very much for everything!!❤
then hor.... JULY i went to Chiang Mai and Hat Yai and Penang(half day Trip)!!!! Oh My Goodness!!!
I was so excited and that was a Great experience to travel diff countries n diff places!!!
I learned about their culture and i love the food.. =D Visit to all those temples and felt amazing!!
and End of July, i met my favourite Author-Queen from Taiwan! =D
August 2014- I went to Phuket!! wuhoo!! Thank GOD because i still alive and live healthily!! ❤
End of August, i attending for National Service(NS) for 3 months!!!

I Back on 8th of November.. Great experience i had in NS!!! i super duper love the life in NS!!! ❤
I am so grateful because I met all the Good teachers and juniors who always helped me and do teach me lots of stuff and diff knowledge!!

2014 is a Surprise year for me too~
First time went to Malacca with bf just to celebrate my birthday!!
How sweet is that?! LOL.. i just love him so much! Thank you my dear bf, Yong~~ ❤

May our Love Stays Forever! ❤

December 2014- I went to Singapore again!! But this time with my Family!!! My super Great Mummy and two younger brothers- Winson and Jack and also my grandma!!
Great memories with them in Singapore!!
we went there for holidays and countdown for Christmas!!
I am so grateful because i able to meet up with my college friends- Hooi Teng and Hui Shi..
and i am so thankful too because they treat me Makan.. LOL.. Thank you so much!! ❤
And i must thank my aunt and uncle...
without them, this trip won't be such fun and nice and GREAT!!
Thanks to my Lovely Aunt and Uncle who brought us to here and there and keep bringing us to have GReat and Good and Delicious Food.. and we like just keep walking and eating...
Sincerely Thanks for everything.. ❤
❤ my family!!!

Family!! ❤

Well, 2015 will be a brand new start for me in everything..
Although my Great Grandma Pass away on the beginning of Jan..
but i still have to thank God because let her go so peacefully..
we all wearing red t shirt to go to the funeral because she dead at age of 101...
more than 100 years old and this is the reason we have to wear red shirt..

In my 2015 resolution, i got a super desperate Target.. That is my health and bodyshape..
I gonna achieve it and my six packs will be with me!!!
I do have my short term plan too.. Just a matter of time to make all of my dreams come true.
I am confident and i know i can Made it!!!
i will achieve all my Targets!!
That's my inspiration to live in this world..
Everyone has their own dreams and goals, so do i?!
gonna train and change my personality so that i can become BETTER and BETTER!!
I wanna be a BETTER ME!!! ❤

Welcome 2015, My another GREAT Year!!!
and this year is my year!! LOL.. *meh meh meh*Sheep Year*
Be Good Be Positive Be Active Be Healthy Be Friendly Be Humble Be Happy Be Creative
Be Success!! ❤

Fighting!! ❤

Life in National Service

hi, everyone.. i am back!!
so happy that i able to update my blog.. hehe..
i went to national service for 2 month plus plus jor~~

time flies~ i am so happy and feel grateful that i able to help others and do my best in everything during that 2 months plus~

photo do shows everything...

PLKN life!!

so happy and i really do enjoy life in PLKN..
i join for all the activities...
-be the emcee for the two events...
-first time be the YB.... short name is YB SAN... LOL.. pilihanraya, parti kunci.. =)
 and we won it!!! =D
-join for the karaoke competition
-first time sing malay song with minus one.. LOL... surprisingly got champion!! @.@
-so sudden.. and super happy to be Pelatih Contoh for Wirawati..

YB for 2 parti.. =)

Emcee for the last event- Simpulan Kasih

2 emcee enter karaoke final and we got Johan and Naib Johan.=D

Pelatih terbaik, Penembak terbaik, Pelatih Contoh

i just felt grateful for everything and thank God that always blessing me and give me strength to overcome all the obstacles...

i really super duper love the life in national service...
all the time schedule and my workout timetable are fixed.. =)
gonna maintain this!! =D

my locker and schedule~