this is ReaLitY..

hoho.. long time did not update my blog..
currently, i have step into the corporate world which means i am working now~
>_<...

there is a huge different between studying and working.
i just started my work for two weeks and i felt like..... aww..
how come all the things i have learned is not related to my work..
sad case... >.<

sometimes i am wondering why the reality is so cruel...
i still remember i have told most of my friends that i would not work as an accountant and sit in the office for more than 12 hours.
BUT Now.... i am doing these both things!!!

this is REALITY~ i could not dislike my work because i graduated with management account qualification.. =.='''
this is so called life.. i could not change anything.. i just can ACCEPT everything...

hmm.. life is full of obstacles, thus i keep telling myself...... Stop complaining and Work it out!!
the more i can solve the more i can learn!!!
jia you and fighting until the end...

working and gain experience first!!! Learned everything and it will be useful in future~
Joyce, enjoy your working life and complete all the assignments given by the Lord.. :)

Life.. ^^

time is precious.. now is already May 2013....
these few weeks..... i had too many events and outing..
hmm.. most of my friends said that i was so enjoy my life...
errrr.. and i don't know how to answer.. but indeed for this moment i do enjoy my life~

after 'enjoying' few weeks.. i started to worry about finding jobs cz most of my friends started their working life and i still hanging here~hmmm...
what am i thinking? hmmm.. i just want to settle my NS stuff first and after that just find a full time job~

next week onwards, gonna start my part time job~
i have to earn as many as possible..
have to save money for exam fees la~ travel fees la~ and bla bla bla~
work hard and smart!!! Gambateh!! =)
Perhaps everything will be smooth~~ =D

Have to be Positive!!!
and remember that No Pain, No Gain~
Love Life..

Oops.. btw.... if my medical report is too pretty~~
i gonna go for NS on 15th of August.....
hmmm... >_<

Smile like usual~ This is Joyce...^^

Bad day and A Hero to me~

today awake at 7am++, diarrhea.. almost get crazy.. pain until i beh tahan.. haha
after that, i sleep back again.. awake at 10am++... no electricity and it's too hot for me..
once no electricity in my house, i have no water supply.. no water to drink, no tv, can't online and many things i can't do without electric... luckily everyone has went out, hehe.. then i take bath without closing the door.. aww... seem like it is difficult to live without electric.. >_<

after starting my car engine, i do not know where should i go.. i scared  my brother called me and asked me to fetch him.. so i decide went to Fang's house first.. she accompanied me to have my brunch...
Thank you so much my dear sis!!! =)
Luckily i still have you~
eat half way, Winson really called me and asked me to fetch him..
huhu.. how caring am i? cz of him i went there eat pan mee... haha..

send him home and let him take bath..
we couldn't stay at home because it is really too hot for us..
we decide go to Jusco's Starbuck to relax and the main point is there got air-con.. hahahha

once reached there.. we are considered lucky because we found parking..
but............aduh... something happened... once i finished park, i couldn't move my car steering and even restart my car engine..
at that moment, i felt myself so bad luck.. i am so worry and keep nagging my brother..
not only this incident, at that time, my hp also gone!!!!! my brother dropped my phone and it is under his seat!! luckily we got double check!!! aww... what a bad day for me?!!

i dare not to call my mum because i am super sure that i will get scolded 99....
so i called him... aww...luckily, he just finished his first round of coaching and he came to find me..
when i saw him, i feel so safe and Thanks Lord because i got the chance to know him and
he is my boyfriend... Thank you, my dear~ =)
he really come and rescue me.. he is my hero!! and i love him so much..
he seem like an expert, hahahha, only used up a few minutes to fix everything..
I am so guilty and need to apologize to him because i give him troubles and made him late for another round of coaching at Puchong.. the travel time is quite long..
i am so guilty and feel myself so troublesome..
but i really so touched when i see him...
Thank You so much!! I love you, my dear...
without your help, i really do not know how am i going to drive back home.. >.<

hahahha.. after meeting with him, i feel like..... wow.. my luck is coming back to me...
hahahha.. no more bad luck.. and all good luck is coming to me...
All great and good things are coming to me..
My brother and i went to Starbucks and spending our time at there...
feel so relax and i got the time to update my blog again... =)

Thanks for everything...i should not keep blaming when i faced problems..
I should thanks the problem and let me to find solutions to fix it..
this is the way to learn thru out our life...
I strongly believe that by using gratitude in my life, everything will be different!!!
LoVe Life!!! NO more blaming!!!!
Change it and say THANK YOU!!! =D
 

holidays....

hmm.. finally.. i finished all my papers..
many people ask me how was my exam..
and i answered them i don't know.. if the examiners accept my points and common sense answer..
then most probably i can PASS i think.. hahahhaa...
i hope everything will be okay.. and i BELIEVE i CAN do it and Graduate with all my friends..

my last paper was on Wednesday.. i straight back home once i finished exam..
hmm.. after that, i had lunch with him..
then back home luu.. take my nap...
then.... hahaha.. sleep halfway...
Peter called me and i forgot what he told me cz that time i m so blur..
after i woke up, i text him again.. LOL...
rupa-rupanya, he want to jio me go for dinner~
group mates gathering~ hehe

oops.. at first, he said want to take LRT to go to masjid jamek..
but end up, dexter drove to there..haha...
Luckily we no need to go by LRT.. hehe..
n i feel so lucky cz i follow dexter's car.. huhu~
only dex, weis, yong n me go there by car.. hehe..
Miko, Alex, Yc, Aaron, Daniel, Nicole, Xiao Ling, Peter, wee fong..
hehe.. macam so many people.. hehe... Nice dinner~
after having dinner with them.. we go met Fang, Yu n See~ huhu~~

happy moment to meet with them!!!
nice nice!!!

oops... on the next day, i woke up at 1pm++.. aduh.. i really can be pig dy.. ><
then at night, hang out again...
yu jio us go for dinner!! huhu!!
nice leh!!! Thai food is super nice to eat!!
yummy~~ =D
then very sudden, we went to genting....
=.=''....
go there drink chocolate then back home...
we are really too freeeeeeeee~~
haha.. =)

free until i cn update my blog!!! >_<

~All types of feelings~

today is the day~~ I sit  for my exam, Strategic Management paper~
hmm.. how's it?
I do not know what to say.. 
I just hope and pray hard that the examiner would accept and agree with my common sense answer... 
perhaps everything will go smoothly and according to my plan..
I know myself very well.. this time i really do spend my time and make effort to study..
Throughout the whole advanced diploma life, i knew that i am too dependent on my friends..
i keep saying i dunno la, i can't la, and bla bla bla... 
am i giving up my life and myself like that?? NO...
Although i know it is too late to say this..
but i MUST and i HAVE TO graduate successfully with all my friends !! 

this few days i keep reading positive quotes which has printed by my BFFF, Chai Ling..
i took back everything she gave me and paste them on the wall... 
i wanna say THANK YOU SO MUCH, CHAI LING!!!!
You are my super best friend ever!! You have type so many nice words and nice quotes to me!!
YOU gave me so much encouragement when i am super down..
sometimes i know you really fed up to talk to me because of my bad attitude and behavior..
you keep giving me advices and i like..... err.. sini masuk,sana keluar...
Sorry and Thank you!!
sorry that i always changing and i din study consistently.. 
since we graduate from high school, we choose the different road..
and when i facing all those sad case or just anything, i will call u and keep crying..
and you are the one who always support me and never look down on me..
we understand each other very well even our family members..
my family know you and your family know me too..
both of us know what are we fighting for.. 
i still remember during form 5 that year, we keep encouraging each other...
you push me and i push back you..
we study together, laugh together, hang out together and sit together in class..
i miss those time when we spent together..
thank you so much!!! thank you that you are willing to be my friends..
thank you for the time you spend with me..
thank you for chit chatting with me thru phone calls..
thank you for consoling me when i am sad...
thank you so much!! 
I love you so much, my super best jimui ever!!!! =D
friendship forever ya!!
Now both of us are busy for our own studies..
i do hope during working life, we can spend time together..
yam cha and story sharing with each other~ ^^
I do appreciate you!!! don't you?!! hahahhahaha... 
You always stay in my heart geh although i din text you frequently..
still remember what had i told you before? no one can replace you geh.. you are still my best friends!! =p
macam flower mouth saja~ hahahhaha

back to my exam case.....
err... thank you so much for all my course mates who help me a lot!!!
Thank you, Ming Yuan because he straight away call me when he knew i got problem with my revision!! LOL.. thanks so much!!!
Thank you for my sifu, Will because he always teach me to study!!! aiya, but this time you are not here teaching me but you also got call me!!! Thanks so much!!!!
I know everyone is worry about me!! I got do my Revision de!! don't worry...
the only problem is whether the examiner agree with my answer or not?! hahaha...
Thank you for All My Friends who text me or fb me!!! Thank you!!!
I know you all are caring about me.. 
aww.... T.T.. so touched~~ hahahahha...
Thanks Pei Fang, my another BFFF!!!! hahahhahaha...
Thanks Ling Qian, my xiaoge who always use heavy words to nag and say me!! LOL
Thanks Ziyi, dage who text me and ask me do not give up and MUST DO IT!! hahah.. i know this is my LAST BATTLE.. thanks bro~
Thanks Jason, 3ge who wish me on twitter!! hahhaa.. You also good luck ya!! Gambateh!!
Thanks Ryder, 2ge who also wish me on twitter too!!! You also good luck!!! All the best to you and 3ge!!!
Thanks Miko for wishing me luck during exam!! Thanks so much!!!
Thanks my Darling too!!! hahaha.. he also always encourage me!! love you, Yong!! ♥


I, myself Joyce hereby would like to sincerely thank everyone!!!
Thank You!! Thanks for appearing in my life and You ALL do light up my life!!
Thanks Lord for giving me this chance to meet All of you!!!

the people who i did not mention in this blog, don't get angry or disappointed..
You all still live inside my heart.. don't worry!!! ^_- 

My spirit will never die!! I am still me!!

 

Intoxicated Live in AMAzing Night!!!

wow... it's just end like that.. unbelievable..
i fall sick at the last minute? but Thanks Lord that i am recovered the day before performance and
i am able to perform...

Thanks Dage because he asked me to join this band..
Thanks Every members of the band that they did not scold me!!! They treat me friendly and nice!! =)
oops.. i should intro my band's name first~~
da dang~~ our name is INTOXICATED~ cool enough huh?! hehe..
our band got 6 people..
Drummer- Ziyi
Pianist- Ling Qian
Bassist- Ming Yuan
Guitarist- Kenneth
hmm.. actually we got one more guitarist, he is Alex.. hehe...

hmm.... we've been practiced for so many days... hmm.. uncountable~ LOL
cz i forgot to count.. >_<
As all my friends know i love to sing so much.. so i do enjoy and have fun during the practice!!
wahahhaha...

back to our graduation night... the night got a name!!!
The AMAzing Night
AMA stand for Advanced diploma in Management Account
Super AMAzing right?!! hahahahha...

I am glad that i have chosen this course and i met so many good friends here...
the night was held on 22.3.2013 (Friday)... 
we did the live performance..
although it is not perfect but i still felt very happy because we did it!!!
during all these days, we do faced lots of obstacles and unbelievable that we had cope with it!! huhu~
The night was wonderful and we enjoy all the games and dancing performance done by my coursemates!!
They are really AWESOME people!!! =D
by the way, congra to everyone who successfully clear all their papers and considered as officially graduate..
meanwhile, i still have 2 pending papers.. actually i am so sad that i have to resit but change another way to think this resit might able to push up a bit of my cgpa.. hahahha..

Intoxicated!!! Rockzzz!!

An Unforgetable experience of tooth extraction

Monday.. went to hospital to extract my teeth.. pain for few weeks and finally i can't bear anymore and just straight away go to hospital..
i thought it will be fined and nothing special..
who knows..
the doctor is so 'polite' to me~ she used weird weird style to pull out my tooth!!!
damn scary~
bleeding... keep bleeding...keep keep bleeding..

once i got home, i do not have any appetite to eat..
i changed the gauze and went to bed to take my nap..
around 1pm++, my 2nd brother back from school...
he waked me up and asked me to eat painkiller...

i hardly wake up and go to my room to change the gauze again..
at that moment, i just realized that i keep bleeding for 2 hours and it becomes more worst..
too much blood.. i hardly open my mouth and even talking..
then, i walked to living room and tried to call my brother.. i want to tell him, i felt so suffer..
i keep calling his name.. but he can't hear me.
so i decide to take out the gauze and tell him that i gonna faint..

And.......... After that, i really faint and i do not have any feeling....
i just remembered that my brother put an ice in my mouth and at that time i just got my feeling back..
i almost cry.... i felt so suffer....
whole mouth is blood... so suffer.. so pain...
then i took the painkiller and take nap again...

when i wake up again, my brother just told the whole incident..
he really get shocked..
he said he saw me took out the gauze and my hand is just fall like that..
he keep calling me but i have no respond at all..
he so shocked and scared.. he called mummy and asked her how to do...
then he followed mum's instruction to put ice in my mouth...

phewww.... luckily i am still alive...
at that moment, i really thought i will die like that..
my whole body sweating and felt myself so heavy and so cold..
then i dun have any feeling... just faint like that...
aww.. what a scary moment...

i thought after one day everything will be fined..
who knows still bleeding...
tuesday... my last presentation in Advanced Diploma..
but unfortunately i can't even present..
i can't talk loudly...
Last day in the class and i din talk much with all my friends..
i just sit at there and rest...
how sad am i?!
haiz.......T.T.....
bleeding... bloody smell!!! argh!! i hate this..

after class, we got last gathering in house cafe..
i can't eat.. i just ordered a bowl of ice cream~
once i got home, mum bought porridge for me...
thanks mum... i love my mum so much...

after having dinner, i took painkiller again... and sleep...
again.. i thought i will be alright...

today is Wednesday...
once i wake up, i feel my mouth is full of bloody smell..
oh no!! the wound is still bleeding..
Mummy called me and said want to bring me go to dental..
she said the dentist is full of experienced...

A scary moment again.. dentist said have to stitch....
argh~~~~
he said won't pain geh.... after stitching, he just told me that it will pain for few days..
LOL.. what a good dentist?!!
hahaha..
hmm... the whole process of stitching is very Geli....
he used scissors to cut my extra gum?! hmm.. i do not know how to explain..
just.. ouch, very pain...

back home... hungry.. swallow the small cake and drink water and take my medicine...
sleeping again....
brother back from school and wake me up...
i felt so hungry and suffer.. pain...
brother bought food for me!!!!
after two days porridge, finally i can eat something different..
i ate chee cheong fun!! super delicious.. nice~
after eating those food.. i feel myself full of energy..
happy!!! food is giving me power!!

night, mum bought porridge again..
i curi makan brother's curry mee.. yummy..
i can't bite too hardly.. i just swallow all the kuey teow~
hahah.. i am so satisfied!!
mummy also said i getting better after stitching the wound.. but my face swollen dy.. >.<'''...
huhu. i hope i can get well soon and able to perform on Friday night~
oops.. actually.. i still bleeding now, just satisfied that i can eat more food other than porridge..
Thanks Lord....
May God bless me...=)
 

❤ in the Air... This is Love~ ❤

Start All over again.. our first White day celebration on 13.3.2013,Wednesday instead of 14.3.2013, Thursday cz both of us also not free on the actual day.. haha.. ❤
today i m wearing the dress he bought for me.. haha~

huhu~ He brought me went to Grand Hyatt Hotel and hi-tea at 38 restaurant~ hehe..
happy die me!!! wuhoo~~
nice view nice place.. the service is super nice!! hmm.. but the food...
those desserts are too SWEET for us!! hahaha..
really geh, i din bluff geh... if u all are free to go there, u all will feel like... hahahah
At first, very excited to see the dessert and feel the colour matching is very nice..
but after u consume, u will started to say.. why so sweet de a.. haha..
seem like eating sugar!!!
the top on the biscuit also ada sugar.. really.. sweet until u do not want to eat anything~

huhu.. ❤

delicious~ 38 signature cake

❤

After the photo section~~ we went to Pavilion watch movie!!
❤ The Rock.. Snitch is a nice movie~~

 hmm... then where we go a??
we went to Mont Kiara to have our BR!!!
taste good~~ huhu..
Sweet sweet~~ ❤


Falling in Love is nice? hahaha..
hmm.. sure la wei~
got people love and care wor~
hmm... but after that will be sad cz getting fat and fat~~~ LOL~

Thanks for being with me, my dear Yong~ ❤

little update..

it has been a long time i didn't update my blog..
hmm.. how long that i didn't use my laptop to on9?
oops.. i already forgot about this..

within this 1 month.. many things happened in my Life..
happy, sad... different feelings mix together...

one of the important thing is.. I fall in love with him again~ LOL...
yes... new anniversary date has been set.. hahhaha.. 22.2.2013..
In a relationship??!! yes, with him..

New things created by us.. Double dating.. LOL..
it means 2 couple dating together and became double dating...
how funny we are?! hahahah..

the feeling is so unique.. feel like i has changed lots..
feel like.. my bad temper is getting less..

not like the usual me....
it is very happy to have a good partner..
and me myself is super duper..lucky to have him...
Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!
Thank you for being by my side.. haha..
Thanks so much, yong~ ❤

after all the happy thingss..
lets talk about serious issue...
2 more weeks.. i gonna resit my paper..
i am so scared..
hmmm.. i hope i can make it..
i have to graduate..
shouldn't say hope..
should say MUST make it!!
I can Do it!!! =D
Fighting and have a positive mind to overcome all the difficulties!!
gambateh in life!!

Love Life!! ❤
God bless me!!
Thanks Lord~

Dreams Gone..

Finally, the result is out. and everything is out of my expectation.. for this moment, i felt myself so useless.. i wish i can post out proudly and said....unofficially graduate.. but i couldn't..

i dunno how to express out my feelings.. i just typing how i feel right now..
keep typing keep crying.. so stupid.. no mood for everything..
i do not know how am i going to tell my mum.. i am so...
why always me?

my close friends, group members, family.. Everyone passed but except me..
I couldn't blame anyone.. just myself..
at first, get shocked, feel want to commit suicide..
self torture? i don't know what will i do..
just..

haiz.. another sleepless night..

2013 starts with Love~

Finally finish up everything.. here my Travel Life begin.. i went to many places..
Cameron highlands, Ipoh, Penang, Pulau Langkawi, Genting Highlands...

after so many days.. i felt so lazy to update my journey~~ oops.. sorry..
i think my photo will express out everything~
this Trip is FUN....
Oops.. i gain weight again.. because.. i just keep eating n sleeping throughout the whole Trip...
wahhahahahah.. so so so so Relax n Enjoy my life~~

Ipoh trip.. eat saja!!!

Langkawi Trip.. Drink n eat!!

PLaYing!! wuhoo. cable car~~

Genting Highlands.. wuhoo.. 1st time went into the casino~ wow~

My summary for the trip's storyline~ LOL...
i m too lazy to type many words.. oops.. >.<

Angry? Sad? feel so uselesS...

updating halfway, youngest bro back.. argument. fighting.
could not bear with his attitude.. his irresponsibility words.. i hate this..
so i fight n scold badly.. even shout at him n call him go to die now..

i am such a bad sister.. i keep asking myself.. am i a good sister? no. i am not..
every time after all the arguments, i will cry inside my room but who knows? no one will know about it.. i am sad to see my brothers live like that way.. i could not stop him.. i feel i m so useless...

why such a big boy, he still can't think properly? keep outing everyday, went to CC.. when know mum will not be at home that night, he, himself, a 15years old boy, went out and back home on the next morning.. what kind of attitude is this? playing truant with friends. talk like a samseng gangster. even talk to mum also very rude but mum did not scold or do anything. as a sister, i really can't bear anymore so i fight, i scold, i be the evil person.. i hate this kind of attitudes.. he is easily get influence by friends.. how his friends act like, he will follow them.. when his friends come over our house, they talk more rude.. WT... am i invisible?

i really do not have the energy to teach anymore.. Lord, what can i do? i really do not want to get involve in this.. i do not want to care anymore.. their life their choice.. i am too fed up with all of this..

Sorry, mum.. cause i always can't control myself..
i always said bad words to them once i get angry..
haiz.. i am the one who should go to die now and leave this house immediately..
i am too upset.. really really....
i m not a good sister.. i could not teach my brothers to do well in everything..
i am such a failure.. i m so sad..

Lord, could You give me strength and heal my broken heart towards them?
Lord, do help my family gone through all of these..
Lord, do help my brothers and wake them up..
Thanks Lord for everything..
In the name of Jesus, I pray. Amen.