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This is My Travel Life!!❤

Friday, October 26, 2012

Sparkling Feelings~ ❤

what is sparkling feeling??!! hahah.. 
i also dunno how to explain what is this?!!
this few weeks.. someone made me feel so touch n terrible too~

what is meant by friends?!? what is friendship?? how to maintain a good relationship?
i treat everyone good and everyone will treat me good?? No...
ini adalah wrong concept!!! 
In my opinion, as a true friend, i will treat everyone sincerely, i will not expect you to treat me good but as long as u wont hurt me... then i will treat u as good friends.. that is my concept.. but...
once u hurt me, i wont argue with u, i just will stay away from u.. >_<

who am i? i m Joyce.. why Joyce? because i want to enjoy my life and be joyful everyday~
i want everyone to be happy like me!!
but this few weeks.. i admit that i couldn't control well my emotions.. i keep crying.. 
i will try to control it and back to the normal me.. gambateh!! ^^

suddenly confuse about the feeling of love.. i scare to fall in love with people.. because i dare not to try again.. i dun want to get hurt again.. this is the reason why am i single for 3 years++..haha.. 
hmm.. sometimes i felt that single is the best because i can do everything freely and do anything that i like and want to do.. i dun want people to control me n restrict me to do something that i really love to do.. >.<.. oops.. this seem like SINGLE Life is the BEST!!!

YET... sometimes.... when i felt so down, sad, emo.... i really need and want someone to console me and encourage me.. not every BFF can by your side anytime anywhere.. but couples are different..
for me, couples should always encourage each other and give power to each other.. LOL..
the Power Of Love??!! may be~ hahhahahaahha...
i know this is lame.. but this is truth wa~~
hahahahha.. =D

if i fall in love to you, dun run away n avoid me.. hahahah.. i sure will chase after u!!!
once i fond of u,i really will take action to conquer u!! LOL..  
this is me!!! waiting for my Mr. Right!!❤
and chase after him to grab my happiness!!! LOL... 
macam so aggressive and DRY~ LOL.. >_<


Wednesday, October 24, 2012

情绪

最近真的不知道自己怎么了..那天是我人生中活了21年,第一次在课室丢书,然后走掉..
我似乎吓倒了几个朋友,在此说声抱歉...
感觉上气冲冲的我,一走出课室,眼泪狂流...
要直接走去车的我,途中遇见junior.. 谢谢你的肩旁!!
冲上车,哭到半死,打给ling...讲了很久很久~平复自己的心情才去上课。。
这故事到一段落...

那一天...觉得自己很麻烦..给了很多麻烦朋友...
哽咽..想哭...觉得自己很没用..哎哟..
整个人变弱了.. ><'''...

昨晚...听了那通电话..眼泪又不知觉流了...
在朋友家...自己一人哭惨了..失眠...
对不起,又吓倒你们...
谢谢你们让我自己有自己的空间..
真的哭惨了..可怜那个pillow... 弄到湿湿了..><
不好意思啊!
通话内容..让我心寒...不懂如何去面对了...

今天..真的不懂自己怎么了..特别早起床...
睡不到了..眼睛又痛到半死..
吃了brunch..去上课...
然后...
真的很不舒服...
最后回家不上课了...
回家的路途中,眼泪狂流..我到底怎么了? 我自己也不懂..
太想家了吗?可能...
真的很想妈妈...

奇迹..妈妈在家...妈说我傻了..
妈说我憔悴了..
妈说为何别人读书读到那么轻松而我读到那么忙..

我爱我的妈咪...

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

不妥..

很久没写了...那时说一定要写关于自己做驻唱歌手的生活...
但是一直都没有好好静下心来写自己的部落格.. ><
好久没唱歌了...还是很享受很喜欢在台上表演...

驻唱的生活让我有了不同的经验...
我不舍...err... 希望我还会有机会去做别间咖啡馆的驻唱歌手吧~~

最近很忙..
参与了一个我想参与的非写实剧...差不多每天晚上都要练习包括星期六日..
在这部剧里的练习,的确让我学习了很多!! =D.. 开心..

哈哈..还有一件值得开心的事...
很想join band很久的我..终于能参与了!! =D
虽然什么乐器都不会玩但是我就是热爱音乐!!
我喜欢和爱音乐的人做朋友!!哈哈哈哈!! =D
我很像join 了一个Underground band... 哈哈哈哈.. 期待与他们演出!! =D
No Music, No life!! <3


其实主题为不妥是因为今天我真的很不对劲...
我突然变得不想讲话,只想一个人静静的坐着..
我突然....心脏痛...可能是太累了吧...
无心听课..定不顺..拿了电话,一包tisu,走出课室...
去厕所旁的凳子坐着..手在抖着..眼泪忍不住一直掉落...

看住电话,一直拨打同样的号码...
脑海只出现两个人..凌和芳..
两人的号码都打得通但就是没人接...
最后打给了他...他说不要哭,take care...
哈哈,有事,挂了..

顿时无助..真的哭惨了...哭着哭着..
看到眼前一片绿绿的草和树木还有叶子...
然后大大力呼吸...

回复自己平静的心情..
对着天空发呆了一下..
去厕所..洗了脸...
带着很平静的心情回班上课...


一开始,很难专心,慢慢把自己找回来...
突然觉得自己可以掩饰得很好..
突然觉得自己委屈了自己...
很像变得很可怜...
一直告诉自己其实我很幸福...

上完课....直接去和朋友玩..把所有事都忘了...
还去做gym...哈哈..无聊的我...

晚上和好友庆祝21岁生日!!
开心!! =D

想对自己说不要再那么失控了...
要好好控制自己的情绪...
要好好照顾自己.. =)

好朋友都在忙时,记得只有自己能让自己变得更好...
我会学着更独立....
我不想再依赖任何人...
我有的就是我自己!! =D


他搬走了...宁静了...我没有感觉...
唉,也许对大家都好吧...


三点了,是时候睡了...
不写了.. =D
后会有期吧!!